This year has had it's ups and downs, like every year I suppose. It couldn't have wrapped up on a better note though. I had issues with one therapist who, just totally dropped me without really telling me why. No big problem though, I just shook it off and kept trudging on my journey to transition.
All that trudging has paid off it seems. I found a new therapist, I have an appointment with him soon. I found a clinic that will prescribe Testosterone on an informed consent basis, which means I don't need a therapists note to start T. I am going into 2016 with high hopes.
I'm also going to be celebrating the New Year on holiday with my beautiful girlfriend. It's one of her dreams to be able to see the Redwood forests in California and she has been wanting to go to the beach for ages.
This isn't as dirty as it sounds, more of a funny joke. As of right now if you google the address:
3135 Fortenberry Rd
Kodak, TN 37764
and then zoom in on the satellite image on google maps it looks like a giant dick in the grass. We cut it that way for a whole year just to get it into the google maps. We have since been asked to stop cutting the grass that way by the landlord, but until they update google maps for this area you can still find it.
Here it goes. My first blog about me. I have a vlog as well on YouTube. I am not sure if I am any good at this talking about myself, but here it goes.
I had a really hard day today. I know I tell people to just shake it off when people are hateful, or when people won't accept you, but I just let it get to me today. A good number of people are supportive of me even though they don't all understand. I am trying to help them understand and explain things.
The thing that I let get to me is the fact that my uncle not only deleted me, but blocked me on Facebook. According to him I need to find Jesus, yada yada, I'm going to hell.
Why do people keep telling me I'm going to hell?
I am usually not the down and out type. I usually shake things off, but I am only human. I can't be strong all the time. So I took a me day. Talked to my friend. Talked to my girlfriend. Tomorrow will be another day.
I know I am not the only one that has days like this. If you are Transgender, be it FTM or MTF, I just want you to know that if you are feeling down right now you won't always feel that way. There are always going to be hateful people out there, but don't listen to them. Listen to what the people that are there to support you have to say. Build yourself a wall of support to help block out the hate.
If you feel like you don't have anyone to talk to there are people you can talk to, give the people at the Trans Lifeline a call.
In later blogs I am just going to talk about my life. Trying to find a doctor, how therapy is going. I will also try to find some resources for other transgender people so it isn't so hard on you.
Below is a video from my vlog. I'm still not used to talking to a camera.
